While I thought my first introduction post would be one that was more pleasent. Today I am choosing to write about Blind Faith. After leaving my quiet time with Jesus, I sat on my bed pondering what I just wrote down in my prayer Journal. Was that really God? Did he say what I really think he just said….. “Brieana your faith is in money not in me”. That hit me like a ton of bricks because I knew I loved Jesus. I knew I had stepped out on what I thought was blind faith when leaving my job to care for my children. What I wasn’t being was honest with myself, I fell into the mind trap of not having enough. Ladies this is exactly what it is, a mind trap with the sole purpose to get you to focus on your current reality and not the truth. The truth is financially I was okay. We had enough money for us to eat our 3 meals just as God had promised. I got distracted in the what if’s and began to second guess God saying things like “are you sure this is God”, “Maybe I made a mistake” and ” Why are you punishing me”. Truth is as the Holy Spirit so nicely whispered, it was my lack of Faith. In this season God is truly stretching me to the point where I don’t know what will be in store for us next month. This journey while invigorating is scary (to be honest). It’s a constant remembrance that my help comes from God and God alone.
No Truth is I have no clue what’s going on in my life currently. I have no clue how I’m going to be getting out of debt and living my best life after walking away from a amazing career because God told me so. I do know though that he will never leave me nor forsake me. I do know that my life has already been prepared ahead of time. All I can do is rest in his promise, remain calm, and simply have faith. The faith to never give up, never give in. The ability my eyes on Jesus even when I can’t quiet see what he has in store for me. If you too are struggling or currently in a wilderness season, just remember God’s got it. Your not surprising him, and he knows everything you truly need.
Rest, Pray, Seek him and allow him to flood your mind and life with the peace that surpasses all understanding.
In Jesus Name,